The first picture in the line is of me and my beautiful son March 2013, the second is me at my brother's wedding September 2012 and the third is at my mother's wedding reception in May 2012.
Let me start off my saying that I HATE these pictures. I feel so ugly looking at them. And I think this hate will fuel me to become more motivated to put the damn cheesecake down and get to fixing this unhealthy bullshit.
I have demolished my body. I've used my mental issues and depression to throw those pounds on like I'm stocking up for the winter. I've smoked and drank and pushed my body into this form and situation as a form of self loathing.
I'm ready to love me for me. I LOVE my personality. I LOVE my son. I LOVE my heart.
I WANT TO LOVE ALL OF ME......... I just want less to love.
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